At this time, I already saw that I was getting chubbier. This was a problem, since I was on my holidays after college and before I flew to the States to continue my degree.
It also meant, I was frequently fed, and if I don’t feed myself with the food she made, she will get upset. I lived with my grandmother, and not blaming her for the reason I was starting to get fat, but living with your grandmother meant good food. I guess I was one those girls that had an early growth spurt, so at the age of 17, I was already not growing horizontally, but started growing vertically. I was a fairly normal sized kid when I was younger, a little to the underweight side.
At my heaviest point, I was 70kg or maybe more? Maybe 75kg? Never have I thought that I would become big sized. I was not obese, however I was overweight. Well really, at one point, even the coins in my pouch means a lot to me, because I get to buy one cup of Nescafe Tarik with it. for someone who just started working and barely has money, even rm10 is precious. So don't ever judge a person for being too vulnerable to be scammed, scammers these days are too good, just be careful. Sometimes you can be skeptical about the situation or the offer, thinking that it is too good to be true, but with the surrounding circumstances you are brought to believe in doing so. I am absolutely embarrassed to admit so, but I am telling you that even a skeptical person like me, that never thought could be a victim of being scammed, can be.
This year, I learned, things may not go your way, however hard you tried, but take it all as learning experience. Dream so hard, so lavishly, thinking of all the things that I have planned, will come my way, despite going through hardship and challenges. and when you get the opportunity, do the best. so that given the opportunity, you will be able to prove yourself. But, don’t let such circumstances bring you down, and continuously find a way to recharge and regain your beliefs. Yes, you can’t be too overconfident, thinking that you are special and unique. Don’t forget to trust and continuously believe in yourself. Or not letting you achieve what you should be able to achieve.